been so long...

that ive posted! geez. not that anyone really reads it lol i remember last year when it was ALL the rage to have a blog lol it does NOT seem like a year ago!! anyways, since my last post, the house is coming along nicely :) Cory STILL needs a better job :/ please send one up to the big man for that! Wedding plans are coming along fine i do believe :) we have 76 days left till we tie the knot! :) :) yay!! so excited! im ready for the house to be completely finished & for us to start moving in & decorating! im super excited about our household showers too :) which will probably be sometime next month! tonight is Amanda Bridges & Dean Lewis's wedding! :D i am so stoked cause i KNOW its gonna be beautiful! It seriously just seems like it was just the other day that they got engaged & they're already getting married!! crazy stuff! makes me nervous cause i feel like ours will be here ANY second! there are 4 of us getting married at the Branch!! Amanda, then me, then my good friends Kesha Lipham & Blake Edwards! :) & KENDRA & SETH ARE GETTING MARRIED!!!! yes. i know. crazy! it makes me feel so old to know that im getting married & so is Kendra! before i know it, Hilary will be & so will Kayla! lol it just makes me realize that we are all really growing up :/ so crazy. i know its a part of life & all, but geez. its just so weird! i cant grasp the fact that ill be moving away from my home & going to a completely different church (which i am SO thankful for!!) & that ill actually have my own home & a hubby! :) and hopefully a few years from now the Lord will bless us with kids! (no i do NOT have baby fever!! when i say a few years i mean like 5!! lol so dont freak!) then ill REALLY feel old lol i mean, Becca already had a baby & he is growing SO fast! he's getting so chubby & i LOVE it :) :) he's starting to grin & make a whole lot of noises & kinda laugh :) Gracie & Mason are so big now :( its so hard to believe they're growing up!! Mason is playing T-ball! its so cute :) Gracie is talking SO much. lol this post is almost too depressing lol! anyways, just felt like letting you guys in on some stuff! :)
much love & fair winds, follwers! :)
♥-RaE.

lots to update you guys on!

hello friends :) okay! i have TONS to update you all on that i did not mention in my last post. first of all! Happy February! the 1st was 4 months till Cory Lynn & I tie the knot!! & now we only have 115 days!!!! That may seem like a lot to you guys... but when you've been counting down for over a year... it's really not lol i know i mentioned in my latest post that Cory & I have a home!! we are currently working on it! :) the renovation is coming along nicely right now. a few small problems that can be fixed have came up, but that's about it! ANYWAYS!!! i totally for got to mention my GORGEOUS nephew Taylor!!!! :) :) :) :) he's a month old (yesterday!) :) :) ah! he's so sweet! he has SO much hair & his mom fixes it in a little mohawk ^-^ lol so cute! he is amazing! the only pics i have of him that are recent are on my phone, but i will try & get more than just the one of him in the hospital up ASAP! again, wedding is coming along nicely :) i picked my dress up & i am in love allllll over again! i dont remember if i blogged about my dress experience... did i? oh well! just in case... we went to David's Bridal & i got the BEST consultant!! she was so fun & bubbly :) anyways, we were looking at dresses & she showed me one that i just didnt really know if i liked... little did i know it was SPARKLY!! ahh! lol i also was DETERMINED to try on the Royal Wedding dress :) yes, Kate Middleton's dress. so i get it on... LOVED it. mama cried & i thought for sure it was it... then i put on the sparkly dres... & it was JUST as wonderful... i LOVED it.... well, i kept comparing every dress to the Kate dress & just wanted it back on.. put it on again & well... ehh. it was just too wintery for what my wedding is all about. so i wanted to put the sparkly one back on... when i did i just loved it so much... it was totally it. i cried, mama cried... it was an awesome experience :) :) i got my crown & im borrowing my sister's veil!! its all so wonderful!! lol if you watch say yes to the dress, you'll know who im talking about when i say the name Randy! well, there was a dress specialist there like Randy & he went on about how good it looked on me. i was thrilled cause i knew that he knew what he was talking about :) dress shopping was so fun!! i finally went & got it & put it on again :) :) *sigh* loverly lol anyways, things are going so much better since my last post! still need all those prayers for Cory Lynn & a good job! we really need this to happen! i just want him to have somthing with steady hours so he can provide.. im leaving my job in may sometime & i'll have to find something out there... not sure what yet. hopefully something will come up! im having a hard time deciding on whether or not to go back to school with the future hubby! EVERYONE (parents, in-laws, co-workers, church friends...etc.) is telling me i should. & i know that! i just dont have a desire to be there at all!! nor do i have something i wanna be!! (career wise i mean. i really just wanna be a housewife & someday a mommy!) idk.. i know that any of you that comment is going to tell me what i need to do is go to school... & trust me, i really am thinking hard about this! buuuut right now its a no.. maybe lol either way! ah! i also am excited to say that Cory Lynn & I will be honeymooning in.......... DISNEY WORLD!!!!!!!!! ahhhh!♥♥ totally his idea, btw! i mean, i wanted to at first... but he said no. so i changed my mind.... then a few months ago he just randomly tells me that he wants to go! at first i said no, but he talked me into it :) :) i am SO excited! then, if im not mistaken, 4th of July weekend we are going with his parents to Universal!! im so ready to do all of these awesome things with my hubby! its always been a dream! :D well, im done with my novel now :)
much love♥
fair winds, follwers!
♥--future..RaE.hOlMan.

mega stressed today.

so since all i've posted recently has been surveys, i feel the need to post an actual blog. not to mention, i'm UBER stressed. i only got paid for a total of 18 hrs when i work 30 hr weeks. let's just say, Rae ain't so happy right now. i have things i need to save for!! i guess this is where good news for all of you follwers that didn't know comes in.. Cory Lynn & I have a house :) :) it's an older house close to where he lives now & we're completely demolishing the place & making it our own :) i just know it'll be super cute!! it looks horrid right now... lol but we're working on that! he's working with future pops every day & even sometimes at publix & going to school. i'm so proud of him! :) just hoping he can get a job that he really enjoys & has steadier pay than publix, so if you guys can, please send up a prayer for him! :) anyways, i've got my dress & wedding plans are coming together quite nicely :) :) we've got the planner, photographer & someone to make my cake all lined up :) so that makes me feel better! im having an AWFUL time picking out bridesmaids dresses!!!! its been a mega burden on me lately! we've resorted to making them. which we dont even know if that will work or not. my mother thinks she can just add on to her stress by trying to help make them... i always tell her not to cause she's already so upset about my leaving home that its not gonna help! for some reason i've really been struggling with that. i know im gonna be fine cause i know its where im supposed to be.. but i guess when reality hits me i can't hardly believe it. i've always lived at home with my mom & been there with her... she is for real my best friend!! so knowing im gonna be so far away for her permanently, is hard to grasp. i can't wait to get married! i really can't!! but i guess im just having a hard time... growing up! trust me, if you aren't engaged or haven't ever had to move off, & you sometime do... you'll understand! im stoked to be getting married & starting my new life with Cory Lynn :) :) just.. nervous about it cause ive never been THAT far away for... well, forever. lol anyways, other than all the stress from the pay thing... im doing okay lol just thought i'd vent for a little bit & put off working :)
fair winds, followers!
--RaE.♥

im just me :)

rAndOm.♥


This is seriously going to get personal, you ready?
suuuure :)

If you were caught cheating, would you fess up?
evetually... i have a really bad consious!

The last time you felt honestly broken?
end of june.

Are you craving something?
kinda, but not really.

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
to see my fiancee!!

Would you rather have ten kids, or none?
ummm idk??

What do you hear right now?
nothing! lol

Is your bed against more than one of your walls?
nope!

What’s on your mind right now?
my back is really hurting & i need to do something! lol

Are you there for your friends?
always :)

Last person to see you cry?
emily!

What do you do when you get nervous?
cry... & pray!

Be honest, do you like people in general?
sooometimes

How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids?
25??

Does anyone completely understand you?
God :)

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
TONS!!!!

Has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you?
yeah...

Would you be happier if life had a rewind button?
NO.

Do you tell your mom or dad everything?
i tell mama most stuff...

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes?
Cory Lynn smokes a pipe, im not saying i like it!! buuuut id rather him not. im glad its just a pipe!

Are you going to get hurt anytime soon by someone?
i sure hope not!!

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
Cory, duhh :) :)

Do you think more about the past, present, or future?
definitely future :)

How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
depends...

Are you easy to get along with?
i think so.

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
nope!

What was the last drink that you put in your mouth?
cherry fanta (cheating on my diet!)

What size bed do you have?
full/queen

Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
before! if i didnt, it'd be freezin!!

Do you like the rain?
NO.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
i hope so!

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do?
yes...

Would people refer to you as a goodie goodie, bad news, or neither?
idk... hmmm lol

Who were you last in the car with, besides family?
me lol

What’s the last movie you saw in theaters and with who?
i think it was either harry potter 1 with my grandparents, or max keeble's big move with Hilary lol

Have you ever kissed someone who had a boyfriend/ girlfriend?
never kissed anyone!!

Have you ever been hurt by someone you never thought would hurt you?
yep..

Your parents are out of town. Would you throw a massive party?
CHYEAH!!! lol jk

Do you regret a past relationship?
i try hard not to have regrets! it brought me to where i am today & i love it here♥

Would you rather spend a Friday night at a concert or a crazy party?
concert.

Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over?
not really.

Have you made a joke about somebody that made them cry?
i dont think so!

Do you care too much about your appearance?
sometimes!

Are you a jealous person?
unfortunately that works with me now.

Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
just did today! :)

Do you miss anyone?
definitely!

Last person who made you cry?
Cory lol

Does your ex tick you off?
he used to REALLY bad.

What are you doing tomorrow?
working =(

Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend/ girlfriend every week?
i've been with the same guy for almost a year & a half! :) & before that, i was never like that.

Is there anyone you want to come see you?
YES!!!!

Have you ever been cheated on?
probably. it was just never out in the open & he was never caught.

Ever given your all to someone who walked away?
ehhh kinda, oh well.
doesnt matter now :) :)

Do you like cotton candy?
love it!

Who was the last person you had a serious conversation with?
Cory, probably!

Do you have siblings?
i do!

Have you ever fallen asleep on someone?
yes lol

How has the past week been for you?
this week has bee okay! could've been better.

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
sure do :) :)

What’s on your mind right now?
my back is KILLING me.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
sleeping :)

What is your current mood?
very tired!

Who was the first person you talked to today?
mama!
Will this weekend be a good one?
right now it seems like it will be :) :)

Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy?
yes :) :)

Who were you with last night?
Taylor♥ Becca, Jed, Emily, Mama, Daddy, Corie Ann...

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
nope....

Next time you will kiss someone?
june 1st, 2012 :) ♥

Who should start the kiss, the girl or the boy?
first kiss, boy!

Do you have any plans for the weekend?
yes :)

-innocent or guilty-
Asked someone to marry you?
guilty.

Danced on a table in a bar?
ugh.. guilty. lol jk!!!!! INNOCENT.

Ever told a lie?
guilty (very long time ago)

Had feelings for someone who you can’t have?
guilty

Ever had feelings for your friend’s bf/gf?
guilty.

Kissed a picture?
guilty lol

Slept in until 5 PM?
innocent.

Fallen asleep at work/school?
guilty.

Held a snake?
innocent!

Been suspended from school?
Worked at a fast food restaurant?

Stolen from a store?
innocent!

Been fired from a job?
innocent!

Done something you regret?
im guilty of it. but like i said before, i try not to regret things.

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
i think im guilty of that one!

Sat on a roof top?
guilty♥

Kissed someone you shouldn’t have?
INNOCENT!

Sang in the shower?
very guilty!

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
everytime im pushed in i have my clothes on ^-^ lol

Shaved your head?
innocent!!

Slept naked?
innocent lol

Had a gym membership?
innocent.

Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
i think im guilty of this one...

Been in a band?
gospel? guilty.

Donated Blood?
inncoent!

Still love someone you shouldn’t?
innocent!

Have a tattoo?
innocent :)

Liked someone, but will never tell who?
kinda guilty lol

Been too honest?
guilty.

Ruined a surprise?
innocent, i do believe!

Erased someone in your friends list?
guilty.

Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if your a guy) or man’s clothes (if your a girl)?
guilty.

Had communication with your ex?
guilty. (not in a bad way though.)

Got so angry that you cried?
GUILTY!

Stolen somebodies partner?
innocent!

Made yourself throw up?
guilty.

Wanted to be someone else?
ehhh... innocent.